What a strange dream. I was working at my old place of employment (15 years ago) and I was living with 3 guys that I didn’t even know. We were sitting in the living room and one of them lights up a joint. He says to the other guys, “we have got to get this dude (me) to smoke this with us”. Now 15 years ago, I would have smoked it right along with them, but instead I told them that was in recovery and that they were welcome to smoke if they wanted, but that I wasn’t going to partake.
I have to wonder if I refused in my dream because now not using is the norm for me. After all, it was a dream and regardless of the decision that I made it wouldn’t have affected my sobriety. It was a dream and not real. For some reason, my subconscience chose to reject the drugs. This is an encouragement to me.
I have been sleeping alot more soundly recently as well and have not been struggling with insomnia as I was a few weeks ago. I really believe that God is beginning to give me peace. Now, that being said I also understand that I need to not let my guard down. I can’t ever let myself think that I have this thing licked. I must always be alert to temptations and never allow myself to stumble. As long as I stay alert, I will be able to continue to have victories instead of defeats.
